My Fairy Tale

sigh.. im soo not motivated to finish my assignment at the mo.. for nearly 2 hrs, i'd done more web-surfing than actually working. it is the quality that matters, not quantity. thus me want to take a break and start again later,hopefully with a better concentration level *hamboi, berjela2nya buat alasan nak melagha!*

--stopped for 3 days. im awesome with procrastination--

--after tht one sentence, stopped again for 10 days. /me perfecting my procrastination skill--

My Fairy Tale.
Believe it or not, my original occupation ws to be a secretary. *blush*. serious best! coz (i thought) tht would (only) require me to dress up & put on make up,wear high heels,9am-5pm working hrs and having a boss tht likes you. ahak! adakahkah kerana tpengaruh dgn kartun Hello Bos dalam Utusan? -_-"
also, i pictured going home pretty tired but somehow all the tiredness dissappear when i reach home to my love ones ^^.

-> got this 'formula' from my very own papa. when i was a lil kid, i asked him wsnt he tired going off to work early during the day and came back late?? he replied that yes he did feel tired at the end of the day, but when he arrived home and saw us laughing and jumping excitedly greeting his arrival, all the tiredness dissappeared~ =)
mind u, papa doesnt normally talk philosophically and jiwang-ly. thus when he did tht once in a blue moon, i remembered & took it very seriously =) caaaaayang papa, mmuah mmuah! ^^
he wasnt kidding abt the laughing&jumping part. everytime mama heard papa's motorcycle sound, she'll alert us tht papa's back and akak & i would rush to the door and.. "YEY YEY papa balik! YEY YEY papa balik!"
*us-jumping-jumping-and-hugging-papa scene*
and if i didnt realize tht he's back, he would be the one checking on me in the room while saying "Nini ku~" in a very 1980's gedik-way. hahahha~ and mama will be jealous of that "huh..niniku niniku. dia sorang ajelah ada Nini.. menyaaaaaaaampah!" =p

oh, meet my 'ideal' family =p. kids 2 at least, 3 if we could afford, 4 if no.3 feels lonely. boleh? lol~ and, hubby helps with housework (like papa!). me n hubby leave our work-problem/stresses and come back home worry free.no, actually,coming home and pouring my heart out to (supportive) hubby (and vice versa) would be more realistik. well, a secretary wont be too stress about work wont she?? ideal tak? bak kata me and Banana, kite nak jadi isteri&ibu yang cantekk!! kan Banana kan??

then along my path of growing up, i figured out that my siblings are blessed with excellent brain. thus everyone wants to be 'somebody'. like, akak wanted to be a lawyer once upon a time. kak linda, accountant kot? me? i crossed/pangkah doctor and lawyer ages ago! *demm* tung tang tung tang suddenly i found out tht i ws applying for medicine. *demm again!* and there i can see my fairy tale slipping further and further away.. coz.. how can i be a good mommy and wife if at the same time im busy working my a** off?? dem! i guess thats not totally impossible. there are lots of great doctor with a happy family around im sure.. >.< muka tak convinced


em..hd a detox session recently,n talked abt my future plan to create a cooking-roster with my future hubby. and, whoever fails to cook hav to shout the other half (+ the kids) dinner outside. we (me+kids) wont mind eating out.. ahak~ well well, im not THAT lazy okay..but i bet i'll be busy n cant handle the family by myself, so hubby need to get on board too.. betul tak?? yea eventually i could hire a Bibik, but.... looking at Klinda's bibikS, haishh complicated.. plus the thoughts of having Indon cooking every night isnt that appealing dan tak romantik kerana tak masak dgn penuh kasih sayang! =p ..
but Is simply laughed at my idea *ggrrr*. Claimed tht I shuld just let my future hubby turns up at the kitchen to help whenever he wants, coz then he wil be doing the chores willingly, rather than half-heartedly. err, 'Willingly'?? ya rite... when? i bet never!! hoi garangnye! tak.. tak..plan dgn penuh kaseh sayang nih

sigh... i guess Is wasnt THAT wrong.. but i do worry a lot about being an excellent doctor plus a wife plus a mummy. can i juggle everything??
~fairy tales slipping further and further away =S ~