Yea, shockingly I had created my own blog! emm.. however, this is a semi-public site coz i havent gt use to people reading my 'thoughts'. so far no one in our District Health Board region (eceh!) knows about this; for a few reasons, so.. can u pliss keep it a secret? surely one day the bomb will explode but let me get use to this small niche of readers for a wee while longer.. =)
our texting session for this few days werent a pleasant one werent it?
u're hurt to be the last one to know about Udenrique's news; which I understand and had apologized profusely for not telling u. Sincerely I thought u already knew about it, so I felt there is no need to discuss about it anymore. I had used the wrong word by saying i dont want to kaypoh abt someone's sad news to others. I dont mean kaypoh like mengumpat, but wht i meant was 'to even discuss abt it'. My justification is that if I'm in Udenrique's shoe, I wouldnt want others to talk about me. Not even my close friends. Coz I am secretive and reserved.
For eg, lets rewind back to the tragedy tht happened to me wayy back in 2006. YOu ppl who doesnt know, dont ask!plisss Even my bestest friend Nadya knew about it a month later. Thats how reserved i am. Banana and Udenrique asked repeatedly for the story but i refused to tell them, even after a year later. Not sure if they managed to get the story frm u or Panjang (i didnt specifically ask u not to tell them eniway, but i was hoping tht u wont spill a word abt it to them), but they got none from me and finally they stopped asking; thanks gals~~. Sorry darling Banana and Udenrique, i didnt mean to be secretive or thought tht u guys are not important to share those stuff with, but there are some thgs tht i really prefer not to be raised or passed on to others unless if u're directly involved with it. apa masalahnye?? bende tu kan dh jadi & dh lepas.. ape nak berahsia sgt?? erk.. thats just me and how i am! i was upset with it and probably stil hav the residual emotion until now. thus, let it be an unresolved mystery. pleasseeeee~ full stop. alamak, i hav side-tracked from the main issue. lets go back.
yea maybe u could also argue tht that case was different from Udenrique's news. but remember i had encountered a pretty similar situation with Udenriques' on 2005. and again, i didnt tell most people including my batchmates except a few who needs to know, and secretly hoping tht those tht knew didnt spread it to others.
As we shuld treat others like how u want others to treat u, I already (unconciously) consider tht a hush hush and will never want to brought tht up, presuming tht u already knew abt it anyway.
As for yesterday's kite invitation, one of us try to reach ur flatmate but failed. I knew the chance was thin, but i thought might as well give it a go and try see if u miraculously gt an early pelepasan, coz if u did and u missed the trip, u might gt more furious to me since u invited me last weekend. u misintepreted my sincere intention =(
U said u get bitter when u're hurt, and indeed i felt that. Please accept my apology, and understand this situation after knowing the story frm my side. Never did i intend to shove u out of my bubble, in fact ure getting more space inside it as the time goes by.
em, this entry is also a public apology to Banana and Udenrique for my secretive nature on certain things. mmuah2~
bubble story pending due to (this) another long entry
/me very excited to meet Udenrique this week! (if not today) =) =)
1 comment:
dear miss universe,
im pretty sure udenrique and banana havent got a clue on what secret u were talking about.i guess they must hv forgotten abt it (lucky for u, bcoz im know those 2 gals really intrusive,okey...)hahahhha
~~~this entry shows how sincere u r =) im touched! i wish i were Anzac (so that i can hug u,at least for doing a special entry for me...not that i want another drama with u...ayo~)
muahxxx
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